…i don’t wanna die alone

why should i expect your love/when i can’t give the same to myself?/why do i think i’m running a race/when nobody’s setting the pace?/what’s the point in having friends/if you resent them/for what you think you don’t have

secretaries, lawyers, brokers/heading for a london station/heading for a quick salvation/oblivious to cherry cola/trying to sell to every stranger/stuck here; it’s cold/hoping for some understanding/only way to go is inside

i’m so nervous!/i’m so thirsty!/execution of powerful drugs and medication/i’m at the peak of my frustration/it’s extremely poisonous! i’m jealous!/indecent talk, delusions, and even a glimmer of hope/destroy! toxic!

heart beats/when your heart in winter beats/don’t let that cold blood freeze/’cause frozen love will bleed/blood streaked/streaked with frozen leaves/leaves broken streets for me/slips on cold red streets

please, please, please just let me be a kind person/teach me, teach me, everything, everything that i don’t know!/please let me realize how foolish i’ve been until now/since, if you do that, you would be right

and i scooped myself up quick/after a fit of “holy shits”/a few more years/and an opposite amount of tears/i finally kicked myself into gear/and i would rather be nowhere but here