we take it one end/and then we lose it again/please look up to the sky and say/please catch us/please save us/find your friends/guess we’re at it again/so long as we see/right/through the waterline

be aware, my darling/these things i say i mean/are just traces of something/i long to feel again/i see our time expand/in the air almost forcibly/spreading thinner ‘til it dissolves completely

started again, started again, started again, oh boy/i’ve done it again, done it again, there’s only penitence in it/i don’t wanna end up in a place like this/i feel like i’m gonna drown/i can’t get no peace

i never wanna be anyone’s enemy/i just wanna let myself be/the girl that i once was/i never wanna be that girl i see/when did i fall so far?/barely recognize me/when do i move on?/so i recognize me/so i recognize me

why should i expect your love/when i can’t give the same to myself?/why do i think i’m running a race/when nobody’s setting the pace?/what’s the point in having friends/if you resent them/for what you think you don’t have

every time i try to look away, i can’t help but peek/i can’t resist the way you smile/i can’t seem to hide the way i feel about you/i just can’t change/there’s no sense in pushing back against the truth/i can feel without shame

and i scooped myself up quick/after a fit of “holy shits”/a few more years/and an opposite amount of tears/i finally kicked myself into gear/and i would rather be nowhere but here